Peace that Passes Understanding

Dear God- Please be with me as I share my story. Let it be for healing not for holding a grudge. Give me clarity and wisdom. Help me to share my story with others and to show others how you have blessed me through my struggles. I pray that I glorify you in all I do. Amen

I will start in the middle of my story, because that is what is on my mind most often. About a month ago I found a letter that my husband had written to another women which showed he was having an affair. (We will call this woman Lola because "what ever Lola wants, Lola gets. A little man, little Lola wants you.) After reading this letter I asked my husband to come into the office. I then told him what I had found. We then went up to our bedroom to talk since our house was occupied by friends. Some would think, perfect timing...great a house full of people and that is when she found out. I look back on it and I am very happy that we were not alone. It allowed us to talk through things without getting loud and upset. (God's plan) In the bedroom my husband confessed to having an affair. I did not cry, I did not yell, I did not get angry, for some reason I was at peace. I had a feeling that this to shall pass and God will bless our marriage through this. This is something that both my husband and I were not expecting. I was brought up to think that men are evil and all men are going to do this. But instead of acting in anger I had peace. PEACE. The only thing I know is that that peace came from God.

After talking for a bit I got a little more information out of my husband and that information being that it was a sexual affair. This is the part that haunts me the most to this day. Picture your husband looking into your eyes and saying that there is no other place he would rather be. Think of him holding you in bed and not wanting to let go. Hear him say "I love you, you are the most wonderful, beautiful woman in the world". Now take yourself out of the picture and replace it with another woman. That is what pops into my head everyday. Even though I have these thoughts, I know that through God I have the strength to over come these thoughts, strengthen my marriage and to give us peace.

So within the first fifteen minutes of my life changing due to this news I can to realise that God has a plan that passes my understanding and I need to live for today.